Hello my name is Izzy and I’m mixed-race. I was born and raised in Germany but my mum is Brazilian and Portuguese was the first language I learned as a child. I actually first learned German in Kindergarten.
And this is where everything started feeling different for me. I was always unlike them. I didn’t talk like them. I didn’t like the food they liked (not at all I actually to this day can’t stand German food laughs) and I obviously didn’t look like them.
I felt and still feel to be honest like a stranger in my own country…when I was younger my biggest desire was to have darker hair, dark eyes and tanned skin. Why?
Because all the women that I admired including my mum and sister, were much “darker” than me. As much as I felt like a stranger in Germany, I totally felt the same in Brazil. To be exact I felt German in Brazil and Brazilian in Germany.
I’m a very calm person but there are a few topics that make me go furious and if you want to provoke me, just ask me why my sister is “so dark” and I’m “so pale”. Jheeze, just writing it down makes me go arrrrgh laughs
Brazil is a VERY diverse country with a lot of influence from everywhere really. So as a result I have everything in my family starting from alabaster 'til milk chocolate smirks - so can you please shut your mouth and get educated about diversity in certain countries on our world because that’s how it is nowadays!
You probably asking yourself now…why the hell is she telling us all that? Well, my simple answer is Football World Cup 2018. My most asked question in this time: On whose side are you?
My answer…I’m for both because I’m Half Half.
One of the worst days in my life so far was four years ago…that horrifying match between Brazil and Germany playing in Brazil…2:7…no comment…
I hated Germany for doing that to Brazil and I hated Brazil for not doing better.
In the end I was very proud and happy for Germany winning the World Cup but that made me realize one thing – I don’t have to choose.
I’m both and one thing that I already knew when I was nine years old, was that in my future I don’t want to decide on whether I’m more the one or the other because I’m fuck yes both of them and I want to express that somewhere where I could start totally new as Izzy…the girl with German and Brazilian roots…so can you guess where that is? ...*Smiles*
“Sun is in the sky oh why oh why do I wanna be anywhere else?” – Ldn by Lily Allen
I think that’s something only mixed-race people can understand…it’s a curse and a blessing all at once but nowadays I see it definitely more as a blessing because that is what makes me unique, that is what makes me look different to others and that is what truly made me be a cosmopolitan person.
This is what I am – I’m Half Half.
